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The Microdose | Psychedelics, Ayahuasca, Psilocybin, DMT Trip

Ayahuasca, Microdosing Shrooms, and Seeking God: Wisdom from the Psychedelics w/ Jakob Gricar

Sat Jul 22 2023
self-hypnosismeditationneural repatterningcuriosityovercoming challengespsilocybinaccepting negative emotionsayahuascadivine intelligenceexpanding perceptionancient wisdompersonal wisdomintegrationholistic healing


This episode explores the power of self-hypnosis, meditation, neural repatterning, embracing curiosity, overcoming challenges, rewiring the brain with psilocybin, accepting negative emotions, exploring ayahuasca, connecting with divine intelligence, expanding perception, ancient wisdom, personal wisdom, integration, and holistic healing. The chapters cover various topics such as self-healing, visualization, transmutation of emotions, embracing both positive and negative emotions, neuroplasticity, travel, personal development, homelessness, mind-altering substances, shadow work, intuition, challenging experiences, manifestation, higher dimensions, ancient traditions, breathwork practices, collective healing, and embodiment.


Self-Hypnosis and Meditation

Self-hypnosis and meditation can be powerful tools for overcoming physical and mental challenges.

Rewiring the Brain

Psilocybin and microdosing can help rewire the brain and break negative thought patterns.

Embracing Negative Emotions

Accepting and embracing negative emotions is an important part of personal growth.

Connecting with Divine Intelligence

Ayahuasca and other plant medicines can facilitate a deep connection with divine intelligence.

Expanding Perception

Psychic abilities and psychedelic experiences can expand our perception beyond the five senses.

Ancient Wisdom and Modern Discoveries

Ancient wisdom holds valuable knowledge that science is only beginning to catch up with.

Personal Wisdom and Collective Healing

Personal healing contributes to the collective consciousness and has a ripple effect on the world.

Integration and Self-Development

Proper integration and self-development are key to maximizing the benefits of plant medicine journeys.

Embodiment and Holistic Healing

Embodying our experiences and taking care of our physical, mental, and spiritual well-being is essential for holistic healing.

Tipping Point in Spirituality and Plant Medicine

There is a growing interest and exploration of spirituality and plant medicine in society.


  1. The Power of Self-Hypnosis and Meditation
  2. Practicing Self-Healing and Neural Repatterning
  3. Embracing Curiosity and Personal Development
  4. From Homelessness to Spiritual Awakening
  5. Rewiring the Brain with Psilocybin and Microdosing
  6. Accepting Negative Emotions and Embracing Magic
  7. Following Intuition and Overcoming Challenges
  8. Exploring Ayahuasca and Connecting with Divine Intelligence
  9. Insights from Medicine Journeys and Shadow Work
  10. Expanding Perception and Embracing Infinite Possibilities
  11. Soul Growth, Integration, and Collective Consciousness
  12. Exploring Higher Dimensions and Ancient Wisdom
  13. Ancient Wisdom and Modern Discoveries
  14. Personal Wisdom and Collective Healing
  15. Integration and Self-Development
  16. Embodiment and Holistic Healing

The Power of Self-Hypnosis and Meditation

00:00 - 07:54

  • Jacob Richer, co-founder of Vortex Retreats, shares his experiences with ayahuasca, mushrooms, and self-hypnosis.
  • He overcame severe eczema through self-hypnosis and meditation.
  • Self-hypnosis tapes helped Jacob overcome insomnia and eventually heal his skin disease.
  • Meditation and self-hypnosis are similar practices in guiding oneself internally.
  • Jacob would visualize positive emotions, attach colors and sounds to them, and observe their movement within his body during meditation.

Practicing Self-Healing and Neural Repatterning

07:29 - 15:17

  • Practicing self-healing through visualization and transmutation of emotions
  • Using colors and sounds to track and observe emotions within the body
  • Creating positive emotions and amplifying them for healing
  • Accepting and embracing both positive and negative emotions as part of the human experience
  • Neuroplasticity and rewiring the brain through focusing on positive emotions
  • Meditation, sports, and travel as tools for neural repatterning
  • Seeking a teacher or guide for further personal development

Embracing Curiosity and Personal Development

15:01 - 22:12

  • The structure and environment in Slovenia limited the narrator's options to follow a predetermined path of education, job, marriage, and family.
  • The narrator had an unconditioned curiosity and desire to explore different things, see the world, and experience different cultures and spiritual practices.
  • At 16, the narrator started dropping out of high school and pursued self-study at home while focusing on physical movement, nutrition, meditation, and personal development.
  • Instead of going to university, the narrator decided to travel the world and recommended others to take a gap year or step outside their structured upbringing.
  • Initially, people didn't believe that the narrator would actually leave home but they have been traveling for around eight years now.
  • The first country visited was Romania at age 16 followed by Israel at age 19 before eventually settling in Barcelona as a starting point for eight years of travel.
  • In Barcelona, the narrator worked with a network marketing company but realized it wasn't aligned with their own goals and values.
  • Adopting other people's goals is common due to societal influences from parents, advertising, and media portrayals of material wealth as happiness.
  • While in Barcelona, the narrator's project collapsed when a friend stole most of their savings. The narrator chose not to argue about material possessions as they were going through their own spiritual process.
  • Currently in Barcelona with close to zero money.

From Homelessness to Spiritual Awakening

21:44 - 29:16

  • Moved to Budapest, Hungary with a friend and found low-paying jobs in party hostels
  • Experienced relief from material possessions and went through stages of losing everything
  • Ended up homeless in France after spending all savings, still seeking spiritual community
  • Used Couchsurfing app to find places to stay and met kind and generous people
  • Moved to London, worked in hospitality industry, experienced severe depression due to lack of sunlight
  • Took a three-month trip through Southeast Asia seeking experiences that made him feel alive
  • Had a life-changing experience trying mushrooms for the first time in Thailand
  • Realized the power of mind-altering substances in breaking negative cycles and rewiring the brain

Rewiring the Brain with Psilocybin and Microdosing

28:46 - 36:41

  • Repetitive actions can rewire the brain and store emotions as a chemical process.
  • Psilocybin can stop the autopilot process of repeating negative emotions.
  • Microdosing psilocybin can have a big impact on someone's life.
  • The speaker developed a fascination with mushrooms and researched neuroplasticity and biohacking.
  • Microdosing with a subperceptual dose of mushrooms allowed for new thought patterns to emerge.
  • After following the microdosing protocol for about two weeks, the speaker experienced being fully present in the moment and observing their surroundings.
  • After about a month and a half of microdosing, the speaker's depression was completely gone.
  • Consistency in taking mushrooms helps rewire the brain over time.
  • In challenging moments, it is important to accept that negative thoughts and emotions are part of life.

Accepting Negative Emotions and Embracing Magic

36:18 - 43:22

  • Accept that negative emotions are a part of life and help us appreciate positive ones
  • Feeling depressed can be difficult to break out of without guidance or support
  • Realize when you're in a low point and use it as motivation to change your baseline
  • Honor and appreciate the contrast and lessons that negative experiences bring
  • Ayahuasca kept coming up in podcasts and conversations, leading to curiosity and interest
  • Synchronicities are like clues from the universe, guiding us towards our next steps
  • Ignoring signs from the universe can lead to bigger disruptions in life
  • Psychedelics like mushrooms can enhance intuition and open up listening capabilities
  • Shrooms are just one tool for expanding awareness, other practices like yoga also work
  • Being aware of subtle energies helps understand the language of the universe
  • Listening to whispers prevents needing to hear screams for change

Following Intuition and Overcoming Challenges

43:07 - 50:34

  • The speaker initially resisted the urge to leave Australia, where they were comfortable and content.
  • Eventually, the desire to explore became stronger and they left for India to do yoga teacher training.
  • From India, they traveled through Europe and ended up in Argentina.
  • They planned to stay in Argentina for a week or two before heading to Peru, but ended up staying for three months.
  • During their time in Argentina, they got caught up in the social interactions and indulgence of the lifestyle there.
  • They realized that they were not fully resonating with their original vision of going to Peru.
  • The universe often gives partial matches as tests to see if one is ready for the full manifestation of their desires.
  • The speaker needed to purge certain aspects of themselves before embarking on a deep solitary inner journey.
  • After three months in Argentina, they received a clear sign to leave and start their intended journey.
  • While hitchhiking in northern Argentina, the speaker got into a truck with two men who turned out to be dangerous.
  • Despite feeling something was wrong, the speaker ignored their intuition and stayed in the truck.
  • The men pulled off the road, threatened the speaker with weapons, and took their belongings.
  • In a moment of panic and acceptance, the speaker realized they might die but managed to escape with their life after giving everything away.
  • Left alone in the middle of the desert, the speaker stopped a passing car by stepping in front of it and was taken to a police station.

Exploring Ayahuasca and Connecting with Divine Intelligence

50:12 - 57:41

  • The speaker stopped a car by stepping in front of it to get a ride.
  • The incident made the speaker realize that something was wrong and they needed to make a change.
  • Sometimes we ignore the signs that it's time to leave because our minds are too busy.
  • The speaker started working in Ayahuasca centers immediately upon arriving in Peru.
  • They tried Yopa, a powerful medicine made from the Theopo seed, during an Ayahuasca ceremony.
  • The Yopa experience was intense and led to a deep connection with the medicine.
  • The facilitator recognized the speaker's connection with Yopa and encouraged them to learn from it.
  • The speaker continued using Ayahuasca and Yopa for personal journeys before later Ayahuasca journeys.
  • It is important to have experienced facilitators and traditional settings when working with these medicines.

Insights from Medicine Journeys and Shadow Work

57:19 - 1:04:54

  • When embarking on a medicine journey, such as with mushrooms or ayahuasca, it is crucial to find someone with extensive experience working with the medicine.
  • Opening oneself to the medicine allows for influence from external sources, regardless of personal beliefs in entities or spirits.
  • If the space is not held properly during the journey, it can lead to negative experiences.
  • Different cultures and traditions have varying ways of serving medicine, such as making prayers and singing Ikaros.
  • Ayahuasca journeys can have different outcomes, ranging from physical sensations to visual experiences.
  • The common thread in these journeys is the realization that one is the medicine and that everything is available at all times.
  • The medicines remind us of our connection with divine intelligence and that we are perfect as we are.
  • Self-acceptance, self-love, and connection with the divine are key lessons learned from these journeys.
  • Accepting shadow aspects of ourselves is also important in understanding humanity as a whole.

Expanding Perception and Embracing Infinite Possibilities

1:12:01 - 1:19:45

  • Psychic abilities and psychedelic experiences open up our perception beyond the five senses
  • Quantum physics suggests that thoughts and emotions exist in a higher dimension
  • Our seemingly solid reality is just a shadow of the higher dimensions
  • Healing and manifestation occur when we tap into fourth-dimensional experiences
  • Manifestation techniques include emotional freedom technique, visualization, and shamanic journeys
  • There is a divine plan and a connective field from which we all come
  • Contrast and duality are necessary for infinite perfection to know itself
  • We incarnate to learn soul lessons through triggering each other
  • Evolution of the soul is more important than material comfort or possessions

Soul Growth, Integration, and Collective Consciousness

1:19:30 - 1:26:50

  • When facing difficult and challenging experiences, the soul can undergo significant growth and transformation.
  • Manifesting solely for comfort and material gain may not lead to true happiness.
  • The source of happiness is often internal rather than external.
  • Soul growth requires embracing difficult lessons and experiences.
  • Ayahuasca ceremonies can provide intense and dark insights into one's mind.
  • Some individuals seek intense experiences to facilitate personal growth.
  • Setting intentions for ayahuasca or mushroom trips can guide the experience towards self-discovery and evolution.
  • The difficulty level of the lessons received during these journeys is determined by the universe based on what an individual can handle.
  • Ayahuasca ceremonies offer unique sets of lessons each time, while mushroom trips may revisit unfinished homework if not addressed in previous trips.
  • Doing personal work and learning from challenging experiences extends beyond psychedelic journeys into everyday life.
  • The potential of humanity is vast and unimaginable, which can be both awe-inspiring and terrifying.

Exploring Higher Dimensions and Ancient Wisdom

1:26:34 - 1:34:15

  • The intensity of waska (a hallucinogenic substance) can be overwhelming and takes the experience to the next level.
  • There are different theories about the true nature of the universe, including being in a dream or a hologram.
  • The speaker believes that there is a source energy that wants to experience itself, leading to infinite possibilities and dimensions.
  • Dolores Cannon's work in hypnotherapy reveals past lives on Earth and extraterrestrial scenarios, suggesting a unified field of consciousness.
  • Science is limited compared to accessing people's super conscious minds for understanding different realms and dimensions.
  • The book 'The Convoluted Universe' by Dolores Cannon is recommended for exploring her work.
  • Learning from Dolores Cannon challenges conventional knowledge taught in school and raises questions about what exists beyond our perception.
  • Science is seen as limited compared to traditional wisdom practiced by indigenous tribes for thousands of years.
  • Indigenous communities possess unique knowledge and wisdom that Western civilization lacks.

Ancient Wisdom and Modern Discoveries

1:33:46 - 1:41:22

  • Commonalities exist among different ancient traditions, such as the depiction of serpents and the existence of pyramids.
  • Ancient systems like Ayurveda and Chinese medicine have concepts that science is just starting to catch up with.
  • Breathwork practices are found in various traditions and have been proven beneficial by science.
  • Instead of trying to prove the benefits through studies, it is better to actually experience practices like meditation and breathwork.
  • Traditional tribes hold ceremonies as prayer ceremonies, whether through singing prayers or performing rituals.
  • Modern society's focus on science has limited its understanding of the magic of the invisible world.
  • Outdated information is still being taught in schools, including nutrition advice based on the food pyramid.
  • Finding up-to-date knowledge requires research within specific communities or circles.
  • Living in big cities and Western society can make one feel disconnected due to wastefulness and unhealthy habits.
  • Access to information through the internet makes it easier to make informed choices about nutrition and health.

Personal Wisdom and Collective Healing

1:40:59 - 1:48:55

  • The internet provides access to information, but it's important to use personal wisdom and guidance to determine what works for oneself.
  • Following someone else's diet may not yield the same results for everyone.
  • Personal dreams and desires may be part of a larger plan guided by divine intelligence.
  • Connecting with the source and Mother Earth leads to acting in integrity for the benefit of all.
  • Spreading awakening and sharing knowledge is important, but forcing change is not effective.
  • Focusing on personal healing can have a positive impact on the collective consciousness.
  • The hundredth monkey effect suggests that when enough individuals learn something, it becomes available to others through a collective field.
  • There seems to be a tipping point in spirituality and plant medicine where more people are exploring these practices.

Integration and Self-Development

1:48:25 - 1:55:55

  • Reaching a tipping point in spirituality and plant medicine
  • Advice for people new to ayahuasca: focus on finding the right space and prioritize integration
  • Integration circles are more powerful than drinking ayahuasca alone
  • Sharing experiences in integration circles helps understand personal healing's impact on collective healing
  • Talking to an experienced ceremony leader is important
  • Gratitude is often felt by participants, even those who had a tough journey
  • Understanding how the medicine works is crucial for acceptance and surrendering to it
  • Interacting with people who have gone through the process and seeking integration specialists can enhance the experience
  • Finding mentors and integrating properly is key to healing, not just doing the medicine for its own sake
  • Some people keep going back for more because they haven't done their homework or found what they truly seek
  • Personal journey can lead to relying less on psychedelics and finding answers through meditation practices
  • Accessing DMT states without psychedelics is possible through breathwork
  • Consider your intention and why you feel called to do it before deciding if it's right for you

Embodiment and Holistic Healing

1:55:38 - 2:01:08

  • Learn to be embodied and feel everything that comes up in your body.
  • Devote yourself to a higher power and experience the embodiment of being human.
  • Take care of your physical vessel through nutrition, movement, and self-care.
  • Develop your mind through meditation and other powerful tools.
  • Vortex Retreats organizes retreats in powerful vortex locations around the world, offering plant medicine guidance and integration support.
  • The retreats include breathwork, shamanic music, micro-dosing protocols, EFT, trauma release techniques, and more.
  • Vortex Retreats is now part of the Collective Card Tutorial for guided integrations pre and post-retreat.
  • Onsite psychedelic integration coaches and frequency technologies are used during the retreats.
  • Ancient knowledge and modern energy healing techniques are incorporated into the retreat experiences.